I woke up this morning and received this great surprise in my inbox:
You are growing so fast my little baby!!!!
It is amazing to think that both of you are more than 15500 kilometers away , but thankfully the staff from the clinic is taking well care of my lovely Surrogate and the baby.
Now that the delivery date is approaching more and more ( only 16 weeks left) , the feelings towards this process have changed a bit. Now everything seems so real so intense . At the beginning everything started as being a very strong deep feeling but now is a reality that will materialize sooner than later.
As I have said many times , this rollercoaster of emotions is worth every second , the expectation , the feelings , the wondering and of course the great surprises.
The other day a friend asked me if I am afraid of the way my life is changing and scared of all the things that are about to come. I didn’t took me long time to answer because I don’t feel afraid. I feel anxious and I do have lots of questions in my head , but all those will continue to answer by themselves as time goes by.
My advice to anyone out there that shares the same dream with me is that there is no obstacle that will overcome the strength of persistence. Even though you can be a bit scared sometimes , don’t be, because fear only deprives you from living. We only have once chance in this world ( at least in the actual shape), so don’t waste the opportunity .
I found this little poem ( unknown author) that truly describes how I feel. I dedicate this to my little angel grow baby grow!!! :
I Loved You From The Start
You’re part of me, my little one.
As your father , each day I knew
My mind would be filled with thoughts of you.
I’m daydreaming of the things we’ll share,
Like late-night bottles and teddy bears.
Like first steps and skinned knees,
Like bedtime stories and ABC’s.
I’m thinking of things you’ll want to know,
Like how birds fly and flowers grow.
I’ve thought of lessons I’ll need to share,
Like standing tall and playing fair.
And promise you unending love.
I’ll memorize your eyes and nose.
And whisper, “I love you” every night.